*Ouch*

honestly..i think imma stay away from nikes for a while...people act like its no other shoe beside nikes (dunks, air maxes, sb's etc)....even tho Jordans are the same way i still want a few pairs before i call it quits...but by not rocking nikes i can expand my footwear collection without being like everybody else...na'mean?

so i had an interesting phone conversation yesterday...this person was not happy with me and in a fit of rage said and i quote "you will die cold lonely and alone"...wow...now i've had people tell me this wished i'd die...i've had people call me every name in the book AND even had them tell me their friends wanted me dead on arrival...and i laughed it off...it was awesome...because half of these people i don't know...i don't care about but saying "you will die cold lonely and alone"...ouch dammit...like that is just something you don't say...because it very well could happen...i don't know when i'll die but considering the fact as of right now i don't have a female companion in any sense of the word and im stuck in Texas (which has 0 of any type of female i would begin to talk to) me dying "cold alone and lonely" could very well happen if i die in my sleep...yikes...so what do i do? Do i obtain somebody to prove this person wrong? Which would be an amazing feat at this point...my friends are fed up with taking me places to meet females and then i leave with nothing...

#1 i want to be alone right now i.e. no relationships but a female "friend" wouldn't hurt...
#2 i haven't found a female "friend" cuz im picky...at first everybody thought i was shallow but as of late i've been getting pretty ones and turning them away because they aren't about anything...they want to sit around...not go to school...live with their parents...boring...very...
#3 (well there is no number 3 but i dunno...i don't think you can have countdown without number 3)

so where do i go from here? im not sure...because damn...dying alone, cold and lonely is a scary thought...but ever since i've heard that statement i feel defeated...shit like i don't want to go anywhere...i don't want to do anything but sit up in my room...record and make beats...is that a good thing? at least if i die i leave behind something worth talking about...at least if i don't go anywhere i can't hear another female say they hate me...i think im on like 5 right now...awesome!

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